Michelle
Before I get started today, I just have to say something. This past month has been emotionally trying and stressful. Letting go of alot of mom was hard enough, but with all the things going on with family members and family-in-law, it's been tough to keep focused and I am not sure I got all I should have out of the readings. I just pray that as we move thru these stressful and emotional situations, that God is with us and that he guides us to make the right decisions and to let us know when and where we need to be. These are the times that it is so hard to be this far from everyone and it weighs on me emotionally. So I ask God to keep us connected to each other and to keep us communicating. I also ask that God help us stay focused and turn to him in our time of need, helping us to be willing and able to give our stresses to him in order to help us keep moving. In Jesus name, Amen.
So chapter 34 was relatively short, describing the boundaries for the cities and tribes. 35 starts with setting boundaries for the Levites and their pasture lands. It then goes into Cities of Refuge, which seems to be just for murderers, or at least unintentional murders. It almost sounds like their "jail" as they are not to leave these cities for a specified amount of time, although that time is relative to either their trial or the death of the high priest. It speaks of the "avenger of death", which sounds like someone that has been appointed the executioner and the way it's described is relative to the saying "an eye for an eye". This chapter sounds like the beginning of how our justice system is structured. Something that stands out at the end of this chapter for some reason is vs 34, "Do not defile the land where you live and where I dwell...". I'm not sure why but these feels important to me and makes me think that we as a people may be doing this today. While we don't all live in the promised land and that may be what is being referenced here, we do not all take care of what we are given. There are many that trash and don't care for what they are given, when we should be thankful for what we have no matter how much or how little that is. It seems to be a lesson in contentment, or instruction in that we be thankful and care for what we are given and be content in what the Lord has provided.
The psalms seems to start out questioning God regarding wicked people being prosperous or jubilant, and then seems to be reminding the people, doesn't God see all that you are doing and he will judge you accordingly. Blessed is the one who rejects the wicked ways and who takes a stand against the evildoers. God is there to support you when you feel you are failing. The verse that really stands out this morning is 19, "When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy". This has been true for me from time to time. When I have turned to God asking him to aid me in my stressful times, or when I ask for him to take the thoughts and feelings I am having away from me so that it calms my mind, it has helped and he has done it. At times, it takes me repeating this prayer over and over for it to work, but that could be me not allowing myself to give it up in the way I should. But once I do then my mind becomes less foggy. It's hard to explain and harder to do in the moment.
Julie
I completely understand where you are Michelle and I struggled with a lot of the reading this month because it felt like it was hard to focus a lot. I like and appreciate your insight on this reading because I didn't really feel like I got what I needed to out of it, but that makes perfect sense. Thank you for the prayer I believe that we all need that right now.
I agree with your assessment of the Psalm and do the same thing you do with the verse that you picked out. It is sometimes hard to let those things go and it takes a lot of prayer to move past and let go and realize that we are not in control. I also wonder if this is not a time in the world where you should be praying this Psalm, because it seems that the wicked are taking things over more and more every day.